|Hey guys. I've moved to www.notminetoclaim.blogspot.com|
Xanga has been too slow recently so yeah. God bless. =).
I won't be shutting this down, but will not be posting anymore.
|My blog seems dead. But anyway, it doesn't matter. |
I'm still alive. Still alright. Cause He's holding me. And I know that no matter what comes my way, He will still be there.
A short post for now. Will be updating soon.
|I thought I was over it, but I guess I'm not. |
Just this morning, I was sitting alone in my room and He spoke to me. I started talking to myself (I'm not crazy) reminding myself of how GREAT our God is. And He touched me there and then. I was amazed by how I could just feel Him so much when I least expected to.. And it didn't stop there.
After I was woken up from my afternoon nap, my mum was asking me to pack. I went back to my room, shut the door, and suddenly I felt Him again. It's like He was literally drawing me to His presence. I stopped everything else, started playing some songs, and just broke down and cry. And it was during those moments that He reminded me of so many things that I have missed out.
And so, I am full of joy. And this is what I've thought of the past few days:
The only reason why we find it so hard to surrender everything to Him, is because we don't know him well enough.
I thought I knew Him well enough, but I struggled in this area of surrender, and it came to me, that if I knew Him very very well, then I would know that He, for one, will take care of me.
There is no point knowing the truth if you don't believe it, if you don't put it into action. I think it's time for us to start living by faith, and only by faith. Because if it's not now, then when? As He himself once said:
Matthew 24:35 - Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will not pass away.
And so, He is leading me into a deeper level of intimacy with Him. I shall stop trying to make things right, to get back things to the way it used to be. I am no longer focusing on how I can't go on, but rather, on Him who will deliver me.
Don't ever doubt what God can do. Cause it really hurts when you ever question the One who loves you more than you can ever imagine. If we could understand how He would feel, then maybe our lives would be radically changed..
Lord, I need You. More and more each day.
|Haven't been updating consistently, if you don't count those 'emo' posts. Lol. Anyway, many people have said that life after SPM is boring. I beg to differ. I've always said that it won't ever be boring, not for me. And true enough, I'm enjoying every single moment.. =D. It's not that I'm constantly going out, watching movies or anything like it. In fact, I've spent at least 80percent at home.. Doing what I've always been doing. If you know me, then you'd probably know by now that exams have never changed the things I do.|
I'll be posting pictures on my posts soon.. Just to make it less dull and boring. And will be blogging more often I hope. There are loads of things to do this month and that includes two camps. Which will take exactly two weeks when you add the days together..
God has been graceful. I've learnt alot today, will post some other time. Till then. God bless =).
|'Lord, I cant do it anymore... It's too much, just too much.'|
'My daughter, you are not alone. I am with you, always. Don't you know that?'
'I know, but it's just too painful to go on anymore..'
'Have I not been faithful to you? Have I not supplied all your needs? Nothing is impossible for me. Trust me, just trust me.'
'Oh Lord, I trust You.. Please, do what You will. I take joy in the promise that You've given me; that You will withhold no good thing, for those who do what is right.' (Psalm 84:11b)
And so, He reminded me once again of His faithfulness, His love and His ever-loving kindness. Just the thought of all these things lightens my burdens.
Lord, I give it all to You right now. For this life is not mine to claim, but Yours.
Come like you promised You would
I want to surrender for good
I know that I need You
And I dont want to keep living life alone
So take my heart
and make it new
make it true
And make it like You
Take my hands
I lift them high
They're Yours not mine to do
Do what you will
I'm ready now, do what You will.