| | I thought I was over it, but I guess I'm not.
Just this morning, I was sitting alone in my room and He spoke to me. I started talking to myself (I'm not crazy) reminding myself of how GREAT our God is. And He touched me there and then. I was amazed by how I could just feel Him so much when I least expected to.. And it didn't stop there.
After I was woken up from my afternoon nap, my mum was asking me to pack. I went back to my room, shut the door, and suddenly I felt Him again. It's like He was literally drawing me to His presence. I stopped everything else, started playing some songs, and just broke down and cry. And it was during those moments that He reminded me of so many things that I have missed out.
And so, I am full of joy. And this is what I've thought of the past few days:
The only reason why we find it so hard to surrender everything to Him, is because we don't know him well enough.
I thought I knew Him well enough, but I struggled in this area of surrender, and it came to me, that if I knew Him very very well, then I would know that He, for one, will take care of me.
There is no point knowing the truth if you don't believe it, if you don't put it into action. I think it's time for us to start living by faith, and only by faith. Because if it's not now, then when? As He himself once said:
Matthew 24:35 - Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will not pass away.
And so, He is leading me into a deeper level of intimacy with Him. I shall stop trying to make things right, to get back things to the way it used to be. I am no longer focusing on how I can't go on, but rather, on Him who will deliver me.
Don't ever doubt what God can do. Cause it really hurts when you ever question the One who loves you more than you can ever imagine. If we could understand how He would feel, then maybe our lives would be radically changed..
Lord, I need You. More and more each day.
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| | Posted 12/14/2008 10:25 PM - 49 Views - 4 eProps - 2 comments
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